Monday, December 3, 2012

A Cleansing Soul

Last week was not ordinary. I felt off. I couldn't wait for the weekend. Counting down the days felt like a million hours. I read blogs but sometimes couldn't find anything meaningful to say. Friday at 4 pm I am fairly certain I looked like the road runner and got the heck out of the office and bee lined it to pick up Ian like I do every day and we grabbed a bite and came home. I sat on the couch with the iPad and Pinterest'd my brains out. There is something about looking at stuff that makes me happy. Saturday, I watched football, ate some of my favorite things because I am starting a 30 day challenge and just enjoyed being at home. 

I have become somewhat of a home body. I feel claustrophobic if I get around a crowd of people. I don't know if its just I feel like everyone is thinking of what I look like, how I am doing, they want to ask but they don't, how's my life, blah blah. So, I avoid it. I am sure that will change but right now I am comfortable in my own little safe haven. 

Sunday, because my presh puppy Libby aka Lou Lou thinks that she's everyone's alarm clock got me up at 6 am. I went back to sleep and at 8:30 I arose from the bed, made coffee and thought about the day. Oh, and I decided to go outside my box and buy a new coffee creamer. I use milk, but with all the holiday selections thought it would be good to try the Salted Caramel Mocha. Total fail. I didn't like it. But I am going to try the White Chocolate flavor and if its not pleasing, then back to the regular- milk and sugar. 

At 9:30 am, I began to clean. The more I cleaned the more intense it became. I am one of those people that if I get upset or really mad I clean. I wasn't either, but felt the need after last week to just declutter. I washed all the laundry, folded it and put it away.  Like ALL of it. Things that have been in baskets for months. I mean socks became reunited with their mates. I love match making. I threw things away, cleaned my sons room top to bottom. Vacuumed until the floor couldn't be any cleaner. I was on my hands and knees cleaning the carpets of dirty spots and then hands and knees again cleaning the bathroom floors. For some reason, I found it freeing. A different kind of cleanse and not in a crapping my brains out sorta of way. I bagged up clothes to give to my cousin for her little boy, threw away things that were not mine but hey, shoulda took em when ya left, right? I swept and swept the hardwoods and with every stroke I felt better and better. I was also sweating my galls off (my new word for girl balls, you gotta grow a set sometime in your life.)

By 3 pm, I was worn out. I probably can't move today, but it honestly felt so good. The windows open, the fresh air, no sounds except the wind. Maybe it's a start of healing, maybe its the start of renewal or maybe I just needed to clean the damn house. Probably the latter, but I felt like I had accomplished something that I haven't in such a while. 

So, while everyone is juice fasting and swallowing fish oil to rid their body of toxins, I cleaned house. I am hoping this sets the tone for the rest of the month. 

What do you do to cleanse your soul? Read a book, meditate, set in a round room and count the corners? 

Happy Monday,
Dusty

28 comments:

  1. I think my way to "cleanse my soul" is to run, exercise to feel better. I hope you are feeling better now! :D

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  2. I listen to my favorite music and SCREAM the lyrics, or cry. I clean too and also exercise. I depends on what im pissed/sad about

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  3. I really loved this post. I love the way you write...it's like reading a good book. There's nothing like a clean house and soul. And you're right, he should've taken that shyt when he left!

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  4. i do various things to clean my soul. sometimes, it's driving out for hours, sometimes it's reading in a coffee shop, and sometimes, yes, it's cleaning my place

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  5. I have no idea who 'he' is or when he left. Im new to your blog but... screw him. he SHOULD have taken his shit. to get over a guy they always say to get under a new one (i find this quote hilarious but not really true) but i would rather just burn all his shit and think of all the reasons he was a POS. Thats what Ive been doing recently. I miss my husband of course and wish things could be different but he treated me like shit and I just need to remind myself of that. i cried everyday and now I smile. so although I dont know why he left or why you arent together or what happened, and its none of my business, but just keep your head up. Itll get better. And clean the hell out of you house and just go do things that make you and your mini me happy.

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    1. ^^^ Exactly! That was me 3 years ago. Being a (mostly) single mom to a 6 year old boy is hard but great at the same time. It (really) sucks at first but definitely gets better with time.

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  6. I get into modes where I have to clean everything in the house too... it doesn't happen often, but when it does, boy does it feel good. I am such a firm believer of how you ring in the new year reflects the type of year you'll have. I think this was the perfect time for you to have this cleanse. It's a great way to enter the new year and this new (and amazing) chapter of your life! :)

    xo, Yi-chia
    Always Maylee

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  7. I have to get it out, i just have to go on a drive and get away and definitely listen to music and CRY!

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  8. I clean when I'm upset or really mad too, I always find a good sort out works wonders. It depends why I'm cleansing my soul, but I like time by myself, whether its going for a walk, reading or watching a favourite film.
    Now you have had your big tidy up fancy coming to London to help me? ;)

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  9. "galls" Oh Dusty.. how happy you make me. how very happy.

    listen. i never clean when I'm upset. When I'm upset/worked up I honestly don't know what to do with myself, I tend to just lay on my bed and hope I fall asleep. it's ridiculous. maybe I need to clean. maybe. if i have thoughts that won't stop reading is not an option.

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  10. Next time you feel the need to clean that badly come see me, and spend the weekend and clean my house.
    xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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  11. Galls! Let's make it a thing.

    I love cleaning days like that. They are rare, but life changing.

    I clean my closet when I get that itch.

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  12. I always find myself sewing to get rid of stress. Either that or some type of excersise, walking/jogging.

    It's a great relief once we get rid of all that bad junk off our shoulders!

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  13. I am glad you are taking time for YOU. The internet, blogs, tv shows can all wait. I love going on walks by myself when I need to clear my head. And baking in the kitchen too

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  14. Cleaning is so therapeutic. Know what I love the most? Putting on my cutsie Martha Stewart apron, Red lipstick, and cleaning. Makes me feel like a woman. :)

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  15. I use to run or swim but alas I have lost all motivation, so I have fallen back on old faithful: cleaning. I also clean when I'm avoiding stuff...I use to do it alot when I was working full time and going to graduate school. Happy to hear you are cleaning out the negative in your life :)

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  16. I usually go for a long run, preferably at a park or less populated area. It always clears my head and calms me down. I hate cleaning but I like a clean home... I think personally cleaning would just make my mood worse!

    I think that the act of throwing away your ex's things and cleaning out reminders of him will help you heal. No need to change your homebody ways, mows the time to put yourself first & make yourself happy.

    Em

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  17. To really cleanse my soul I need to take a day off of work and head down to the beach in the morning. This only works if I am doing it during time I should be working. But I agree that cleaning is nice. You know, I clean parts of my house every morning. But I don't have kids, so I am sure I can't always do this. And friend... how are you? My mom and I talk about you all the time.

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  18. I would love to say I shop {but I can't afford to as much as I NEEd to cleanse}. I love to "deep" clean throw crap out!!! FLOORS never other then vacuuming.

    Glad you have a "fresh" start girlie@!

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  19. I usually take a hot bath or I clean lol. :)

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  20. Dang, I'm especially wishing we lived closer so you could have brought that cleaning frenzy to my house. I love you Chica!

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  21. oddly enough to cleanse my soul I eat. OK I eat for any occasion... it's how I cope and the reason I will never be skinny! Sometimes a good cleanse is exactly what you need. smooches to you.

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  22. Cleaning is SO therapeutic. But when I really really really need a good soul cleansing, I crave exercise. Which is hilarious, because I hate to sweat these days, but I'm always so much more alive after a "gall" busting workout.

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  23. ahhh just reading this made me wish you were at my house more than ever. :) I need to go through a freeing cleaning.

    I don't know what I do to cleanse my soul. I don't know that I ever have. but I know there is one around the corner. I'm just waiting for THAT moment when I realize that I'm going no where in life and need to get my crap together and become super motivated and stuff. it's coming, I know it.

    and as always, I freaking love you.

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  24. Galls...seriously, best new word EVER! I run. When my mind isn't straight, I work out. It's the only thing that allows my mind freedom to unfocus, because I'm a dweller and a anxietal type...I'll think and think until I go crazy. Enter round room counting corners...so I run. I LOVE YOU!

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  25. Something is in the air- I was in quite a funk the last week, too. When I need soul cleansing, I do... this! Haha.

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  26. Seems like a great time for all of this cleaning. Out with the old (year), in with the new. I should take your initiation and do the same. xoxo

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  27. I'm a cleaner/organizer. I love nothing more than destroying a closet or cabinet when I'm pissed and then making it look beautiful again.

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